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When was the last time you had a crush on someone? The giddiness bristling through you like a wave of goosebumps. I feel like I’m constantly crushing on people. At first blush it’s easy to see what you want and to read what has been presented. Chiseled, warm, intelligent, Anthony @sweeetserialkiller is a prime candidate for #MCM material. When you meet him it’s very hard to not see a dreamy dancing fantasy. But behind it all there’s so much more and it’s that life of a complex person that may end up not being the dream you had once dreamt. And maybe it’s less? But maybe it’s much more? 🐍 “I am in a constant battle with people perceiving me as something I’m the complete opposite of. Social media has given people the misconception to think they know who they follow and through what they post. People think I’m this super sexual being who goes out every night to party because I post pictures in my underwear and videos having fun with my friends. It’s funny because all of my friends call me ‘Grandpa’. I’m always canceling plans and staying home because I’m usually tired from my hectic life! As for the sexual part, I just enjoy being naked. I joke around and say I’m asexual although I’m not. It’s really just a defense mechanism to keep boys away from me.” Crazy as that may sound to some of us, it’s testament to the importance of one’s own intention to invest in the practices that give us the most fulfillment. “I’m at a point in my life where I want to focus on me and my craft. My aspirations as a dancer is to just keep performing, hopefully all over the world. The feeling of performing on staget fuels me and makes me happiest.” 🐍 As far as attractive people go, it seems you can a) ride your looks and rest on your laurels for as far as that’ll take you or, b) begin to see the superficiality and impermanence of it all so you dig deeper, value the things that don’t have such a short shelf life and that are even more indicative of your unique value. 🐍 When I asked Anthony what may be something that people may find surprising about him he explained with no ego, “That I’m smart. I wouldn’t say it’s such a surprise but to some people it oddly has been. continued ⬇️ #GutsNYC

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Our #mcm goes out to my friend Mitcheal Pope whose birthday was yesterday. In light of the mystifying #JussieSmollett news it’d be salient to remember my friend who was among the sweetest, most creative people I met upon moving to NYC in ‘05. He had kindness and humility, and could throw a serious Leigh Bowery-level-look together and vogue across a dance floor for minutes, ricocheting from wall to wall like a bumper car. . I think he’d have liked me to honor his memory but also to let people know to not get it fucked up—Our community is far more vulnerable to violence and hate crime than most. . I thought he’d recover after he told me he’d been attacked in Crowne Heights in October 2014 after he was out just grabbing a coffee on a Monday morning. . When he returned home, he let a man in behind him, thinking he was an on site construction worker. But when he went to get his mail, the bum ass coward attacked him with a hammer, shouting anti-gay slurs. . Mitcheal told NBC4NY, "As soon as I got into the staircase, I was hit from the back unexpectedly. I fell down the stairs backwards, and he got on top of me and started hitting me.” . "I thought he was going to take my life," he said. "I was struggling to save my life." . The attack left him with a fractured skull and several gashes to his head. . “Right after the incident, everything appeared to be normal,” Mitcheal’s mother, Agnes Watson told the Post. A month later, “all of a sudden he really, really started acting different. He was becoming delusional and paranoid.” . If you knew him, he was brave but gentle and highly relatable. Mitcheal, uncharacteristically, took his own life in mid-January 2016, jumping from his third-story window. . His family said the city medical examiner ruled out drugs and said a brain injury could have affected his behavior. . NYPost: “Whoever did this to my son back in October should be held responsible,” Watson said. “He absolutely contributed to my son’s death.” . One suspect was arrested on 11/7/15 in relation to the bashing, which police classified as an anti-gay hate crime, but was released on his alibi. “The police are not doing what they need to do. (cont. in comments)

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So our #MCM @rellifeangel will be featured slightly different as a conversation. Shai was also unconventional as he was nominated by two people. Also I @dust_blaze will come out from behind the GUTS curtain for a moment to share our conversation and reveal how someone can win your heart in a short amount of time. Only GUTS questions will be labeled, all else is Shai. ✨ Shai: I don't necessarily know what to share haha I'm better at answering in the form of a questions. ✨ GUTS: Ok hmm well let’s start with this—Is there anything you feel misunderstood about? ✨ I think I'm misunderstood in the sense of how people assume I'm this perfect angelic person and they want me to upkeep this image. I always try my best to be the light in the world, to try to balance out the evil in it but that can be really exhausting. I try but I’m also cynical and feel like hiding from the world all the time. ✨ GUTS: Where does this sense of duty come from? Also it’s in your handle. Is that a nod to the capacity that you are what they perceive? ✨ The sense of duty comes from growing up and feeling a lack of love and compassion in the world. From being raised in an evangelical church, taught to be someone who was a caretaker. My mom really put it in my head that the world was a place that was against me and to carry myself in a way that was light and divine. And yeah, I think I signed myself up for that perception. If I had a $1 for every time someone told me I was a real life angel I'd be able to pay months of rent and then some. ✨ GUTS: So just because it’s exhausting, does it mean that the virtue isn't authentic? I only say that because you said it’s an assumption. ✨ No the virtue is really authentic. It's always just expected, and when you're an empath, you take in more and it's super tasking. ✨ GUTS: Were you born and raised in NYC? ✨ I was born in Syracuse, NY. It's a weird place. I felt alienated but it’s also a place that I hold near and dear to my heart. If you aren't either a scholar or an athlete, it can be hard to flourish. ✨ GUTS: What was it like moving into the city? Have you lived here for a while? (Continued in comments) #GutsNYC

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Character is often about energy. There are some amongst us that emit a particular kind of voltage. Our #MCM @sammykims is lightning in a swampy sky. They (Sammy) are charged and striking. And like lightning which happens as a result of reactions between different atmospheric regions, the story of Sammy has a prologue that was laying in wait for their grand entry. 🔋 “I grew up in the suburbs of Long Island and Westchester, and moved to the Bronx with my parents before attending art school in the Hudson Valley.” 🔋 "Before moving here, I'd commute 2 hours to Bushwick, twice a week, just to go dancing, hit up parties, meet other poc fags, and just hang out all weekend. It was so electrifying! I'd never met others like me and so accepting of what I had to bring to the table. They embodied all the superlatives—Creative, compassionate, and fucking hilarious." 🔋 "I was hardly home and my mom thought I was wasting my life. I didn’t have any justification, but something told me I had to be here, and there was real potential to discover the person I sought to be and explore repressed desires." 🔋 "I’ve been in Bushwick since the summer, exerting my energy into my friendships, appreciating every moment, making the most of opportunities—From beach trips, group dinners, hosting parties, booking gigs, to meeting & collabing with artists. These people need me just as much as I need them. I'm blessed to have found my chosen family. There’s none quite like ours." 🔋 "I want my story to be one of compassion, helping others. It’s more than me. My bio reads: ‘Imagine a future where our children don’t have to spend their entire lives validating their existence & unpacking past traumas... let’s create that.’ 🔋 Sammy realized that energy efficiency is an issue even for the most vital of us, "It took my Pisces ass a while to get that I didn’t have to sacrifice my needs in order to provide for others, but rather it was the contrary: My oppa told me, 'You can only give freely when your cup is overflowing.’" 🔋...(cont in comments)

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I noticed our #mcm @kiwifag maybe a year ago at a party in Brooklyn and I never forgot his face and style. Some people, even as an onlooker, wield the power to enchant you, to make you want to know more. So here goes: ✨ Kiwi faced a challenging time growing up queer and biracial in Bolivia, “I had no one to look up to or relate to while being constantly teased and abused. I was taught to bottle up my feelings so I isolated myself.” ✨ “In 2012 I moved to DC, and this year to NYC. I finally felt free to let go of my anger and resentment which I had harbored for so long but did so in the most meaningful and beautiful way—By creating unashamedly. That’s when I’m happiest. I do it for both the joy of creativity and my own sanity. Whether it be photographing someone, being photographed, or sewing my next look.” ✨ “Now I can dance all night long without fear. But most importantly, I learned what a queer family is and how much growth and inspiration we can give to one another. I’ve had great role models who have inspired, validated, and nurtured my growth. I’m forever grateful for them and hope to pay it forward to others.” ✨ “And honestly, with my growth, I’ve come to find a lot of beauty and joy in being latinx and middle eastern, even though it comes with a whole lot of socioeconomic issues, I’m proud of it. Today, I wouldn’t wanna be anything else.” . . . . . 🅲🆁🅴🅳🅸🆃🆂 1️⃣ @haonguyen.jpg 2️⃣ @kris10lafleche 3️⃣ @mattelife 6️⃣ @reuelklara 7️⃣ @tangentsofbill @bmorekahlon #nycgay #nycqueer #queernyc #queerlatinx #gaynewyorker #queerstories #gaynarratives #gaymodel #gaystyle #queerfashion #queerculture

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The beauty of the ugly duckling trope is there’s always a happy ending. It’s hard to deny when you look at our #mcm @rubbyvalentin . In his story it’s the lesson to take certain criticisms with a grain of salt in the hopes that in 10 years you can say, “Hey Mike who called me ugly, look how the tables’ve turned.” 🌟 “I came to the US when I was 5 from the Dominican Republic. At first I was bullied for not knowing any English or American customs. 🌟 In 5th grade, it was for only having girls as friends. Boys thought I was weird but I was a better student so I pretended I was putting off my masculinity for my studies. 🌟 When I went to boarding school in Connecticut I felt ugly and too black. Late one night in the bathroom one of my classmates called me a monkey after running into me. 🌟 It was in the gospel choir and acapella groups where I found my voice existing without the weight of body and appearance. But also in church I felt extremely guilty and powerless so I stopped going regardless of how my deeply religious parents felt. Now I’m religious in my own way. Just not practicing within an institution. I’m more spiritual and energy-oriented. 🌟 My queerness and my difference has allowed me to delve deeper into my craft in search of a unique voice and way of listening. 🌟 I’m always looking at how to turn the ugly into the beautiful and redirecting energies into productivity. My parents felt weird about me coming out to my siblings and cousins out of fear that they would also turn out like me. I found it very hurtful and hid myself even more. 🌟 I think that if we teach our young queer babies who lack family to give them affirmation they’ll be stronger and ready to harness more of their inner beauty for the world. 🌟 As a musician my influences are Selena, Beyonce, Marina & the Diamonds, Kelela, Smokey Norful, and Arca. My fan base are hispanic qweerdos obsessed with emotion and power, and my close friends that come to my events and sing every lyric back at me!” #GutsNYC . . . . . 🅲🆁🅴🅳🅸🆃🆂 2️⃣ @eomisterman 3️⃣ @philip_nasty 4️⃣ 📸 @itzelalejandra.gif styled @_michaelouis_ 6️⃣ @haonguyen.jpg 9️⃣ 📸 @boychoy styled @lilhunty_ for @intomore

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So many of us have such a reflexive resistance to any kind of orthodoxy. Our queerness often wedges itself against many traditional or puritanical systems (thank god). Our sexy #mcm @cylersays has had a particularly intimate experience with this. Here’s how he escaped and managed to flourish: “I get called brave a lot. I was raised in an evangelical cult until I was 17 when I had to proclaim my homosexuality to the congregation before being forced to start a new authentic life alone.” ✨ “I never had a sense of belonging when I was growing up. There was no one I could look up to as a role model, so when I escaped the cult, I had to begin to construct an identity without an understanding of queer history or references since I’d been cut off from secular influences.” ✨ “My whole life has been in pursuit of belonging. I couldn’t have known what that’d feel or look like when I found it. It wasn’t until I moved to NYC and discovered a community of extravagant, unashamed, radical faggot fairies that I knew what it meant to belong and to have people to call my family. I’m grateful to this city for connecting me to some of the most amazing people I’ve ever met.” ✨ “I’ve always been loud, brash, and over the top. I believe in living fully and unapologetically. Why should I edit myself to fit other’s ideas of ‘civility’ or ‘social grace’? and that belief can have a polarizing effect on the people I meet—You either love me or hate me, not much in-between. It’s that ‘fuck-you energy’ of liberation and individuality which also draws so many wonderful people into my life who want to achieve that same freedom.” ✨ “When people try to shame me for being ‘extra’ or ‘too much,’ I think back on the weird, little homeschooled outcast I was and I say, ‘I HAVEN’T EVEN REALIZED MY FULLEST FORM YET! I haven’t experienced my full evolution! If you think this is too much, just you wait!’ #GutsNYC ??????? 3️⃣ @mollyrose__ 4️⃣ ? @patmcgrathreal 5️⃣ Styling @laura_zapata ? @juliamartinsmiranda 7️⃣ @nathan.dane.walker 9️⃣ @julimartinsmiranda ? @yungmerlot . . . . . #queernyc #queerstories #nycgay #queermakeup #radicalfaerie #queerpoc #gaypride #nycqueer #gaynyc #genderqueer

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Our stunning #mcm Xavid @xaviiiiiiiiiiid was born and raised in Caracas, Venezuela, “Growing up queer in a South American country many families including my own, a "Machista" (toxic masculinity) mentality was the norm, but when I came out at 16, I was screaming it at the top of my lungs in the middle of a fight with my Mom and Grandma. My mother actually had a receptive and loving response. She was like, ‘Finally!’ My Abuela took it the hardest, but months after, everyone was very understanding and supportive. It was as if nothing happened.” ✨ “My life has changed completely since I moved to Canada. When I left Venezuela at 18, I was in my second year of dentistry school. I was never exposed to the broader world of the LGBTQ+ community. Initially, I was scared of judgement but living in a country where you have queer rights and parades, I was initially stunned. Since moving, I've done Fashion Marketing, Advertising and right now, I’m on a break from school chasing my 90’s supermodel dreams while learning to love myself on the daily and trying to give more love and positivity back to others.” ✨ “I'm super inspired by the feminine spirit, and all the wonderful women I had growing up around me. Maybe one day I’ll have a TV novela about my story, growing up watching my Mom and Aunts doing brujeria, or I’ll write my own. I actually would love that! You'll see exactly how dramatic I can be as a Sun Virgo with Moon in Leo and Scorpio rising, VERY DRAMATIC! ✨ “I often find myself wondering how the reaction would be if I had gotten the chance to come out to my dad when he was alive, or his family, but I guess if they come across this, they'll know.” #GutsNYC . . . . . . ??????? 1️⃣ @lashglue 4️⃣6️⃣7️⃣?@michael_the_iii . #queermodel #queerimmigrant #queercanada #gayvenezuelan ##gayvenezuela #queerstories #comingoutstory #gaycanadian #gaymodel #queerlatinx #gaylatino

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I don’t know about some of y’all but when I was in my early twenties, you couldn’t tell me nothing! I thought I had new insights that had never been considered before. So it’s a relief when you meet young people who have humility and want to learn. For example our fine nyc #mcm Carsey @mrcarsey. ✨ “It’s hard feel like I have much to say, I’m only 22 and I still feel like I have so much to learn about my story. I’m a native New Yorker; I grew up out on Long Island, and I moved to the city right after graduating high school early. I skipped out on college and moved to Manhattan to pursue an acting career, but moving here shattered my perception of the world. I saw new potential in New York, and I’ve been on a constant journey to find myself in it since, endlessly trying to turn potential into something kinetic. ✨ “It’s hard to say what I’ve done with it so far; I’m not exactly sure what my ig says about me. I don’t believe in showing my life through a Facetuned lens as it’s not an accurate portrayal.” ✨ “Most days you’ll find me in front of my bathroom mirror, mulling over my pimples, or I’ll be singing in my shower, bathing in heels, writing in my diary on the toilet. It’s my most personal space, and it’s also my stage. I don’t know how to separate the two. I want to write the deepest part of me, the ugly, the repressed, the dark, and I want to put it on my insta story lol. I guess thats my contribution, taking what I’ve been taught to be ashamed of and broadcasting it for anyone to see, in all its dirty, bombastic glory. That’s what it means to be queer to me. And maybe one day I’ll leave my bathroom and I’ll find a stage with a live audience, but even then, I’ll be in the shower singing my heart out.” #GutsNYC . . . . . #nycgay #nycqueer #queernyc #queerlatinx #gaynewyorker #queerstories #gaynarratives #gaymodel #gaystyle #queerfashion #queerculture

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Inclusivity is such talking point these days and thankfully so. But what does it mean for a country founded and built on its ideology while often resisting it as it is doing so now under this cabinet of complete assholes. ✨ Also, what does it mean to be includED in the ever-diversifying niche cultures of NYC. Somewhere we are all outsiders. Somewhere we are all home. ✨ Our #mcm Vad @vad.m , knows both sides of that coin, “Being born in post-Soviet Ukraine was humbling and liberating, and the time I spent there before I moved to the States set my values in community and in working with what you’re given. It’s why I see the work I do as part of a bigger picture, to clear paths for those with more hurdles.” ✨ “Growing up in Ukraine was tough but fun. It was a very poor country. Things like bananas were luxuries saved for birthdays or special events. Hot water would turn off after 6pm. At one point a loaf of bread was worth close to a “million dollars” because of how often our currency failed.” ✨ The value of immigration and inclusivity is the very lifeblood that has sought our country since its inception, “I get up learning the value in working for something nice and keeping those things special. I never grew up thinking that I could have whatever I wanted but rather whatever I worked for. Ukraine’s culture, however, is rampant with racism, homophobia, and misogyny and are parts of everyday culture.” ✨ These perspectives are teachings from faraway places, “It’s why I see the work I do as part of a bigger picture, to clear paths for those with more hurdles. To protect those who are targeted like poc, cis+trans women, and our lgbtq+ community.” ✨ “My inspiration comes from strong women—The ones who wake up and fight the constant battle for the right over their own bodies and minds. Growing up with feminine energy caused me both scrutiny and empowerment. I never felt more humiliated than when I was outed and never more powerful than when I stood up for myself.” ✨ (This was too hard to edit down read more below ??)

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Growing up queer is challenging. Right when you’re supposed to be figuring shit out, we’re forced to repress crucial parts of our identities that need the freedom to mature. Later, you start realizing the things you had to restrain have become the traits that have given you the most character. ✨ That oppressive wedge that drove itself between our inner lives and what we presented can, in retrospect, feel like a shield that prevented outside sources from polluting the purity of our privacy and uniqueness. ✨ Our #mcm Anderson perceived this metamorphosis where weaknesses become strengths, “being queer (more specifically being a transfag) is the ultimate opportunity to live with authenticity, and without apology. I love being able to move throughout the world in this form that I’ve sculpted; it’s taken a lot of time and work.” ✨ “Navigating fag spaces as a trans man is interesting, I never really know what I’m gonna get from people. My wish is that I can be some sort of beacon of hope for younger trans men. As much as I can, I want to lift up the queer and trans folks around me, we all deserve a little boost.” It is this communal spirit and vision which is, “thankful and privileged to be able to move through those spaces without being clocked,” and it is with the utmost diligence that we remember that, “all kinds of trans people are really beautiful, not just the ones that pass as cis!” ✨ And the places that we think of as being infertile ground for queers can come to be a restorative sanctuary. “I grew up in rural PA as a cowboy! Doing that work has brought me a ton of inner peace, and it’s still an important part of my life. Currently, when I’m not at my day job, I can be found either writing, making music, or taking photos.“ ✨ Many of us have a natural compass that wants to shepherd us toward inner peace, and the route can feel convoluted and roundabout but as Anderson has discovered on his ride thus far, if you are receptive enough you may pick up a few hitchhikers along the way—Some of whom may be other lovely editions of you. #GutsNYC #queerartists #transman #transfag #selfcare #ftm #queercowboy #gaycowboy #queerstories #transmanofinstagram #queermodel

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On social media we present the best of ourselves but there’s so much scar tissue and dark matter that we keep to different degrees. Here at Guts we like to see some of that dirt under your finger nails, especially the fine ones whose life we imagine is—merrily, merrily, merrily—but a dream. ? Joselo, a visual artist residing in Brooklyn, said something that certainly resonated with us, “I’m grown. I’m healthy. I’m about to be 30. I’ve never been better. I’ve come a long way though, I felt like a fuck up for so long. I’m an art school drop out #artschoolruinedmylife and also battled many demons and these streets have really raised me. I’m warm, I’m fuzzy, but RUN UP GET DONE UP.” ?? There is a specific type of trauma that we as queer people must compartmentalize and digest. It can make you stronger and give you character as it has in Joselo’s case OR conversely, as Abraham Lincoln once said, “Whatever doesn’t kill you fucks you up mentally.” ? “If you only know me through the gram and haven’t met me in person, there are many things that are misunderstood about me. But if you know me and I fuck with you, then generally I think I’m pretty well understood. I just wanna be happy and see my community thriving.” ??? A New Yorker of more than 11 years, though originally from the Boston area, Joselo’s been involved in NYC nightlife for a while (@maricon_nyc/DJing/photography/hosting) and has been hustling creatively and couldn’t be happier to be part of the supportive and thriving POC scene happening right now. “I have my sisters who I can relate to and carry with. My chosen family is my life.” Most of us will arrive at a place of satisfaction and peace through time, experience, and searching to problem solve your way through all the ish. If you’re in the thick of it now, just look at this fine example of personal growth, and know that good news is on the way! . . . . . ??????? 1️⃣&8️⃣ @haonguyen.jpg 2️⃣ @olszewski_ 3️⃣ @friedplatano 7️⃣ @designerhooker #queernyc #nycqueer #gaynyc #gayrolemodels #queerdj #queerartist #queerartistsofcolor #gaylatino #queerartists #gaynycmen #queernarratives #gaybody #queertattoo #queermedia #menofcolor

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NYC has an enormous gravitational pull on the world, plucking creative & marginal people out of their outlying nurseries. And just as sure as an angel falls to earth at 9.8 m/s/s, so it goes that the extraordinary and misunderstood will be attracted to NYC’s fertile streets. A microcosm where one can be both lost in anonymity or found and polished like a Warhol star.✨ Massimo @mx551m0 recalls growing up in Upstate NY, “I often felt humiliated because of the stares I’d get. Kids whispered blunt comments about my androgynous appearance. I dreamt of living with my sister in Queens and going to a performing arts school. Now that I’m here it’s hard to go back even to visit. This city is comforting though it’s still easy to feel like a lil’ tiny fish in a huge sea.”✨✨ Of course, attendant with gaining access and tolerance means occasionally feeling dwarfed by the personalities and qualifications of your peers. It’s jarring to go from being underwhelmed to racing in a shoal of ambitious peers. “Whenever I start to compare my journey to others, I actively stop and remind myself that success means many things to different people. Everyone has their path and there’s enough room and opportunity for all.”✨✨ Living in such density, it is nearly inevitable to feel dismissed or misunderstood. “I feel people don’t really grasp who I am and see a pretty-faced queer kid with a unique aesthetic—A character and model rather than an artist—the part of me I identify with most. It’s frustrating when posts of my art get dramatically less likes than photos of myself. I use clothes, accessories, and makeup to express myself but internally my soul is even more of a spinning cloud of creative energy.”✨✨ “I’m in school for photography but I’m exploring videography, sculpture, sound, and more. Art is a tool for healing and examining my experiences as a queer individual breaking the gender binary.” Is it versatility that helps artists gain control over the way they are perceived? Luckily, attractive and fashionable are not the worst attributes to have projected upon you. Soak it in beautiful boy and keep investing in those more lasting interests and virtues that will not fail you. #GutsNYC

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Although personal evolution is very crucial to Znere, he has learned that “no matter how much I change, some things stay the same.” It is this nuanced outlook that makes our #mcm especially compelling. As he learns to encompass the full scope of the human experience—From being in love, to learning the preferred nature in which it’s received; From being a starving artist, to the redemption of working a fulfilling career as a creative— he understands that “everything takes time and as I look through the universe for guidance I can only hope I don’t burn too many bridges along the way.” Inspired by the everyday creative who shows you the “can’t stop, won’t stop“ mentality, Znere is a screenplay writer which is his passion despite often having it being mistaken for modeling which he knows is a result of posting his (drop dead gorgeous ?) modeling shots due to the visual nature of Instagram. Born in Tampa, Florida, he moved to L.A., then again to NYC two years ago. Perhaps it’s apropos that the film he was most influenced by is 2003’s “The Dreamers,” a film about characters obsessed with the beauty and fantasy of cinema but eventually sheds its idyllic visage to reveal the true form and nature of how “the dream,” for all of its style, lacked the substance. It is a fitting note for Znere whose outlook is to embrace the whole of his experience within and also beyond our ephemeral curiosity. As he reflects on the plurality of our mercurial existences, let us also indulge in our superficiality as we reflect on his fine ass and his flawless skin that we’d easily give one of our kidneys in exchange for. ? #GutsNYC . . ????? ??????? 1️⃣ @montystilson 2️⃣ @lukeaustinphoto @zandwagon 3️⃣ @bkcolby . . . . . #queernyc #nycqueer #gaynyc #gaymodel #gaymodels #queerartist #queerartistsofcolor #queerartists #gaywriter #gaywriters #queernarratives

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We’ve always had our eyes ? on our #mcm @loejjie. His striking features are only magnified by a fashionably fearless POV that is editorial, androgynous, and perhaps to some, a little inaccessible and mysterious. ? Well jokes on them. Turns out he possesses an acute awareness of how his desire to be expressive through his appearance can be alienating and misunderstood. ? One of the first things we asked was if Loejjie was his real name. We thought it was a play on the Spanish fashion house of almost-similar pronunciation— Loewe— to which he modestly informed us that it is his given name, an assemblage of the first letters of his parents’ best friends’ names, which he said was not fancy at all and was pronounced kinda like Mario’s ectomorph 8-bit sibling, Luigi. ? A Brooklyn-based Portuguese-Filipino model/actor from Seattle, he decided to open a second ig account @_anime_baddie_ to offset, as he told us, “social media which has become saturated with near perfect standards,” and to create a space “where I catalog my behind the scenes, daily encounters and thoughts that others may find weird, spammy or outright silly. Everyone has a cooler online persona, and that’s ok, but I want to reflect on my early 20s and have a more accurate representation of my life.” “Some people have pointed out that I live this glamorous and easy-breezy life, which is not always the case; so I guess that’s something I feel misunderstood about.” Never judge a DVD by its stylish Criterion cover, especially one with a second disk full of humanizing bonus features. ? What interests would such an exotic and otherworldly beauty use to feed his soul? He says, anime, science fiction, styling and photography. He keeps in shape through a dedicated routine that includes yoga, pilates, dance, and long boarding. ? Don’t get it twisted y’all, some of the ones that seem to be soaring high above, may be the very ones who actually have their feet on solid ground. #GutsNYC . . ????? ??????? 1️⃣ @Youeth4 2️⃣ @Haonguyen.jpg 3️⃣ @idan.barazani 4️⃣ @Harshhy 6️⃣ @Willemverb

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When was the last time you had a crush on someone? The giddiness bristling through you like a wave of goosebumps. I feel like I’m constantly crushing on people. At first blush it’s easy to see what you want and to read what has been presented. Chiseled, warm, intelligent, Anthony @sweeetserialkiller is a prime candidate for #MCM material. When you meet him it’s very hard to not see a dreamy dancing fantasy. But behind it all there’s so much more and it’s that life of a complex person that may end up not being the dream you had once dreamt. And maybe it’s less? But maybe it’s much more? 🐍 “I am in a constant battle with people perceiving me as something I’m the complete opposite of. Social media has given people the misconception to think they know who they follow and through what they post. People think I’m this super sexual being who goes out every night to party because I post pictures in my underwear and videos having fun with my friends. It’s funny because all of my friends call me ‘Grandpa’. I’m always canceling plans and staying home because I’m usually tired from my hectic life! As for the sexual part, I just enjoy being naked. I joke around and say I’m asexual although I’m not. It’s really just a defense mechanism to keep boys away from me.” Crazy as that may sound to some of us, it’s testament to the importance of one’s own intention to invest in the practices that give us the most fulfillment. “I’m at a point in my life where I want to focus on me and my craft. My aspirations as a dancer is to just keep performing, hopefully all over the world. The feeling of performing on staget fuels me and makes me happiest.” 🐍 As far as attractive people go, it seems you can a) ride your looks and rest on your laurels for as far as that’ll take you or, b) begin to see the superficiality and impermanence of it all so you dig deeper, value the things that don’t have such a short shelf life and that are even more indicative of your unique value. 🐍 When I asked Anthony what may be something that people may find surprising about him he explained with no ego, “That I’m smart. I wouldn’t say it’s such a surprise but to some people it oddly has been. continued ⬇️ #GutsNYC

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Our #mcm goes out to my friend Mitcheal Pope whose birthday was yesterday. In light of the mystifying #JussieSmollett news it’d be salient to remember my friend who was among the sweetest, most creative people I met upon moving to NYC in ‘05. He had kindness and humility, and could throw a serious Leigh Bowery-level-look together and vogue across a dance floor for minutes, ricocheting from wall to wall like a bumper car. . I think he’d have liked me to honor his memory but also to let people know to not get it fucked up—Our community is far more vulnerable to violence and hate crime than most. . I thought he’d recover after he told me he’d been attacked in Crowne Heights in October 2014 after he was out just grabbing a coffee on a Monday morning. . When he returned home, he let a man in behind him, thinking he was an on site construction worker. But when he went to get his mail, the bum ass coward attacked him with a hammer, shouting anti-gay slurs. . Mitcheal told NBC4NY, "As soon as I got into the staircase, I was hit from the back unexpectedly. I fell down the stairs backwards, and he got on top of me and started hitting me.” . "I thought he was going to take my life," he said. "I was struggling to save my life." . The attack left him with a fractured skull and several gashes to his head. . “Right after the incident, everything appeared to be normal,” Mitcheal’s mother, Agnes Watson told the Post. A month later, “all of a sudden he really, really started acting different. He was becoming delusional and paranoid.” . If you knew him, he was brave but gentle and highly relatable. Mitcheal, uncharacteristically, took his own life in mid-January 2016, jumping from his third-story window. . His family said the city medical examiner ruled out drugs and said a brain injury could have affected his behavior. . NYPost: “Whoever did this to my son back in October should be held responsible,” Watson said. “He absolutely contributed to my son’s death.” . One suspect was arrested on 11/7/15 in relation to the bashing, which police classified as an anti-gay hate crime, but was released on his alibi. “The police are not doing what they need to do. (cont. in comments)

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So our #MCM @rellifeangel will be featured slightly different as a conversation. Shai was also unconventional as he was nominated by two people. Also I @dust_blaze will come out from behind the GUTS curtain for a moment to share our conversation and reveal how someone can win your heart in a short amount of time. Only GUTS questions will be labeled, all else is Shai. ✨ Shai: I don't necessarily know what to share haha I'm better at answering in the form of a questions. ✨ GUTS: Ok hmm well let’s start with this—Is there anything you feel misunderstood about? ✨ I think I'm misunderstood in the sense of how people assume I'm this perfect angelic person and they want me to upkeep this image. I always try my best to be the light in the world, to try to balance out the evil in it but that can be really exhausting. I try but I’m also cynical and feel like hiding from the world all the time. ✨ GUTS: Where does this sense of duty come from? Also it’s in your handle. Is that a nod to the capacity that you are what they perceive? ✨ The sense of duty comes from growing up and feeling a lack of love and compassion in the world. From being raised in an evangelical church, taught to be someone who was a caretaker. My mom really put it in my head that the world was a place that was against me and to carry myself in a way that was light and divine. And yeah, I think I signed myself up for that perception. If I had a $1 for every time someone told me I was a real life angel I'd be able to pay months of rent and then some. ✨ GUTS: So just because it’s exhausting, does it mean that the virtue isn't authentic? I only say that because you said it’s an assumption. ✨ No the virtue is really authentic. It's always just expected, and when you're an empath, you take in more and it's super tasking. ✨ GUTS: Were you born and raised in NYC? ✨ I was born in Syracuse, NY. It's a weird place. I felt alienated but it’s also a place that I hold near and dear to my heart. If you aren't either a scholar or an athlete, it can be hard to flourish. ✨ GUTS: What was it like moving into the city? Have you lived here for a while? (Continued in comments) #GutsNYC

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Character is often about energy. There are some amongst us that emit a particular kind of voltage. Our #MCM @sammykims is lightning in a swampy sky. They (Sammy) are charged and striking. And like lightning which happens as a result of reactions between different atmospheric regions, the story of Sammy has a prologue that was laying in wait for their grand entry. 🔋 “I grew up in the suburbs of Long Island and Westchester, and moved to the Bronx with my parents before attending art school in the Hudson Valley.” 🔋 "Before moving here, I'd commute 2 hours to Bushwick, twice a week, just to go dancing, hit up parties, meet other poc fags, and just hang out all weekend. It was so electrifying! I'd never met others like me and so accepting of what I had to bring to the table. They embodied all the superlatives—Creative, compassionate, and fucking hilarious." 🔋 "I was hardly home and my mom thought I was wasting my life. I didn’t have any justification, but something told me I had to be here, and there was real potential to discover the person I sought to be and explore repressed desires." 🔋 "I’ve been in Bushwick since the summer, exerting my energy into my friendships, appreciating every moment, making the most of opportunities—From beach trips, group dinners, hosting parties, booking gigs, to meeting & collabing with artists. These people need me just as much as I need them. I'm blessed to have found my chosen family. There’s none quite like ours." 🔋 "I want my story to be one of compassion, helping others. It’s more than me. My bio reads: ‘Imagine a future where our children don’t have to spend their entire lives validating their existence & unpacking past traumas... let’s create that.’ 🔋 Sammy realized that energy efficiency is an issue even for the most vital of us, "It took my Pisces ass a while to get that I didn’t have to sacrifice my needs in order to provide for others, but rather it was the contrary: My oppa told me, 'You can only give freely when your cup is overflowing.’" 🔋...(cont in comments)

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I noticed our #mcm @kiwifag maybe a year ago at a party in Brooklyn and I never forgot his face and style. Some people, even as an onlooker, wield the power to enchant you, to make you want to know more. So here goes: ✨ Kiwi faced a challenging time growing up queer and biracial in Bolivia, “I had no one to look up to or relate to while being constantly teased and abused. I was taught to bottle up my feelings so I isolated myself.” ✨ “In 2012 I moved to DC, and this year to NYC. I finally felt free to let go of my anger and resentment which I had harbored for so long but did so in the most meaningful and beautiful way—By creating unashamedly. That’s when I’m happiest. I do it for both the joy of creativity and my own sanity. Whether it be photographing someone, being photographed, or sewing my next look.” ✨ “Now I can dance all night long without fear. But most importantly, I learned what a queer family is and how much growth and inspiration we can give to one another. I’ve had great role models who have inspired, validated, and nurtured my growth. I’m forever grateful for them and hope to pay it forward to others.” ✨ “And honestly, with my growth, I’ve come to find a lot of beauty and joy in being latinx and middle eastern, even though it comes with a whole lot of socioeconomic issues, I’m proud of it. Today, I wouldn’t wanna be anything else.” . . . . . 🅲🆁🅴🅳🅸🆃🆂 1️⃣ @haonguyen.jpg 2️⃣ @kris10lafleche 3️⃣ @mattelife 6️⃣ @reuelklara 7️⃣ @tangentsofbill @bmorekahlon #nycgay #nycqueer #queernyc #queerlatinx #gaynewyorker #queerstories #gaynarratives #gaymodel #gaystyle #queerfashion #queerculture

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The beauty of the ugly duckling trope is there’s always a happy ending. It’s hard to deny when you look at our #mcm @rubbyvalentin . In his story it’s the lesson to take certain criticisms with a grain of salt in the hopes that in 10 years you can say, “Hey Mike who called me ugly, look how the tables’ve turned.” 🌟 “I came to the US when I was 5 from the Dominican Republic. At first I was bullied for not knowing any English or American customs. 🌟 In 5th grade, it was for only having girls as friends. Boys thought I was weird but I was a better student so I pretended I was putting off my masculinity for my studies. 🌟 When I went to boarding school in Connecticut I felt ugly and too black. Late one night in the bathroom one of my classmates called me a monkey after running into me. 🌟 It was in the gospel choir and acapella groups where I found my voice existing without the weight of body and appearance. But also in church I felt extremely guilty and powerless so I stopped going regardless of how my deeply religious parents felt. Now I’m religious in my own way. Just not practicing within an institution. I’m more spiritual and energy-oriented. 🌟 My queerness and my difference has allowed me to delve deeper into my craft in search of a unique voice and way of listening. 🌟 I’m always looking at how to turn the ugly into the beautiful and redirecting energies into productivity. My parents felt weird about me coming out to my siblings and cousins out of fear that they would also turn out like me. I found it very hurtful and hid myself even more. 🌟 I think that if we teach our young queer babies who lack family to give them affirmation they’ll be stronger and ready to harness more of their inner beauty for the world. 🌟 As a musician my influences are Selena, Beyonce, Marina & the Diamonds, Kelela, Smokey Norful, and Arca. My fan base are hispanic qweerdos obsessed with emotion and power, and my close friends that come to my events and sing every lyric back at me!” #GutsNYC . . . . . 🅲🆁🅴🅳🅸🆃🆂 2️⃣ @eomisterman 3️⃣ @philip_nasty 4️⃣ 📸 @itzelalejandra.gif styled @_michaelouis_ 6️⃣ @haonguyen.jpg 9️⃣ 📸 @boychoy styled @lilhunty_ for @intomore

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So many of us have such a reflexive resistance to any kind of orthodoxy. Our queerness often wedges itself against many traditional or puritanical systems (thank god). Our sexy #mcm @cylersays has had a particularly intimate experience with this. Here’s how he escaped and managed to flourish: “I get called brave a lot. I was raised in an evangelical cult until I was 17 when I had to proclaim my homosexuality to the congregation before being forced to start a new authentic life alone.” ✨ “I never had a sense of belonging when I was growing up. There was no one I could look up to as a role model, so when I escaped the cult, I had to begin to construct an identity without an understanding of queer history or references since I’d been cut off from secular influences.” ✨ “My whole life has been in pursuit of belonging. I couldn’t have known what that’d feel or look like when I found it. It wasn’t until I moved to NYC and discovered a community of extravagant, unashamed, radical faggot fairies that I knew what it meant to belong and to have people to call my family. I’m grateful to this city for connecting me to some of the most amazing people I’ve ever met.” ✨ “I’ve always been loud, brash, and over the top. I believe in living fully and unapologetically. Why should I edit myself to fit other’s ideas of ‘civility’ or ‘social grace’? and that belief can have a polarizing effect on the people I meet—You either love me or hate me, not much in-between. It’s that ‘fuck-you energy’ of liberation and individuality which also draws so many wonderful people into my life who want to achieve that same freedom.” ✨ “When people try to shame me for being ‘extra’ or ‘too much,’ I think back on the weird, little homeschooled outcast I was and I say, ‘I HAVEN’T EVEN REALIZED MY FULLEST FORM YET! I haven’t experienced my full evolution! If you think this is too much, just you wait!’ #GutsNYC ??????? 3️⃣ @mollyrose__ 4️⃣ ? @patmcgrathreal 5️⃣ Styling @laura_zapata ? @juliamartinsmiranda 7️⃣ @nathan.dane.walker 9️⃣ @julimartinsmiranda ? @yungmerlot . . . . . #queernyc #queerstories #nycgay #queermakeup #radicalfaerie #queerpoc #gaypride #nycqueer #gaynyc #genderqueer

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Our stunning #mcm Xavid @xaviiiiiiiiiiid was born and raised in Caracas, Venezuela, “Growing up queer in a South American country many families including my own, a "Machista" (toxic masculinity) mentality was the norm, but when I came out at 16, I was screaming it at the top of my lungs in the middle of a fight with my Mom and Grandma. My mother actually had a receptive and loving response. She was like, ‘Finally!’ My Abuela took it the hardest, but months after, everyone was very understanding and supportive. It was as if nothing happened.” ✨ “My life has changed completely since I moved to Canada. When I left Venezuela at 18, I was in my second year of dentistry school. I was never exposed to the broader world of the LGBTQ+ community. Initially, I was scared of judgement but living in a country where you have queer rights and parades, I was initially stunned. Since moving, I've done Fashion Marketing, Advertising and right now, I’m on a break from school chasing my 90’s supermodel dreams while learning to love myself on the daily and trying to give more love and positivity back to others.” ✨ “I'm super inspired by the feminine spirit, and all the wonderful women I had growing up around me. Maybe one day I’ll have a TV novela about my story, growing up watching my Mom and Aunts doing brujeria, or I’ll write my own. I actually would love that! You'll see exactly how dramatic I can be as a Sun Virgo with Moon in Leo and Scorpio rising, VERY DRAMATIC! ✨ “I often find myself wondering how the reaction would be if I had gotten the chance to come out to my dad when he was alive, or his family, but I guess if they come across this, they'll know.” #GutsNYC . . . . . . ??????? 1️⃣ @lashglue 4️⃣6️⃣7️⃣?@michael_the_iii . #queermodel #queerimmigrant #queercanada #gayvenezuelan ##gayvenezuela #queerstories #comingoutstory #gaycanadian #gaymodel #queerlatinx #gaylatino

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I don’t know about some of y’all but when I was in my early twenties, you couldn’t tell me nothing! I thought I had new insights that had never been considered before. So it’s a relief when you meet young people who have humility and want to learn. For example our fine nyc #mcm Carsey @mrcarsey. ✨ “It’s hard feel like I have much to say, I’m only 22 and I still feel like I have so much to learn about my story. I’m a native New Yorker; I grew up out on Long Island, and I moved to the city right after graduating high school early. I skipped out on college and moved to Manhattan to pursue an acting career, but moving here shattered my perception of the world. I saw new potential in New York, and I’ve been on a constant journey to find myself in it since, endlessly trying to turn potential into something kinetic. ✨ “It’s hard to say what I’ve done with it so far; I’m not exactly sure what my ig says about me. I don’t believe in showing my life through a Facetuned lens as it’s not an accurate portrayal.” ✨ “Most days you’ll find me in front of my bathroom mirror, mulling over my pimples, or I’ll be singing in my shower, bathing in heels, writing in my diary on the toilet. It’s my most personal space, and it’s also my stage. I don’t know how to separate the two. I want to write the deepest part of me, the ugly, the repressed, the dark, and I want to put it on my insta story lol. I guess thats my contribution, taking what I’ve been taught to be ashamed of and broadcasting it for anyone to see, in all its dirty, bombastic glory. That’s what it means to be queer to me. And maybe one day I’ll leave my bathroom and I’ll find a stage with a live audience, but even then, I’ll be in the shower singing my heart out.” #GutsNYC . . . . . #nycgay #nycqueer #queernyc #queerlatinx #gaynewyorker #queerstories #gaynarratives #gaymodel #gaystyle #queerfashion #queerculture

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Inclusivity is such talking point these days and thankfully so. But what does it mean for a country founded and built on its ideology while often resisting it as it is doing so now under this cabinet of complete assholes. ✨ Also, what does it mean to be includED in the ever-diversifying niche cultures of NYC. Somewhere we are all outsiders. Somewhere we are all home. ✨ Our #mcm Vad @vad.m , knows both sides of that coin, “Being born in post-Soviet Ukraine was humbling and liberating, and the time I spent there before I moved to the States set my values in community and in working with what you’re given. It’s why I see the work I do as part of a bigger picture, to clear paths for those with more hurdles.” ✨ “Growing up in Ukraine was tough but fun. It was a very poor country. Things like bananas were luxuries saved for birthdays or special events. Hot water would turn off after 6pm. At one point a loaf of bread was worth close to a “million dollars” because of how often our currency failed.” ✨ The value of immigration and inclusivity is the very lifeblood that has sought our country since its inception, “I get up learning the value in working for something nice and keeping those things special. I never grew up thinking that I could have whatever I wanted but rather whatever I worked for. Ukraine’s culture, however, is rampant with racism, homophobia, and misogyny and are parts of everyday culture.” ✨ These perspectives are teachings from faraway places, “It’s why I see the work I do as part of a bigger picture, to clear paths for those with more hurdles. To protect those who are targeted like poc, cis+trans women, and our lgbtq+ community.” ✨ “My inspiration comes from strong women—The ones who wake up and fight the constant battle for the right over their own bodies and minds. Growing up with feminine energy caused me both scrutiny and empowerment. I never felt more humiliated than when I was outed and never more powerful than when I stood up for myself.” ✨ (This was too hard to edit down read more below ??)

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Growing up queer is challenging. Right when you’re supposed to be figuring shit out, we’re forced to repress crucial parts of our identities that need the freedom to mature. Later, you start realizing the things you had to restrain have become the traits that have given you the most character. ✨ That oppressive wedge that drove itself between our inner lives and what we presented can, in retrospect, feel like a shield that prevented outside sources from polluting the purity of our privacy and uniqueness. ✨ Our #mcm Anderson perceived this metamorphosis where weaknesses become strengths, “being queer (more specifically being a transfag) is the ultimate opportunity to live with authenticity, and without apology. I love being able to move throughout the world in this form that I’ve sculpted; it’s taken a lot of time and work.” ✨ “Navigating fag spaces as a trans man is interesting, I never really know what I’m gonna get from people. My wish is that I can be some sort of beacon of hope for younger trans men. As much as I can, I want to lift up the queer and trans folks around me, we all deserve a little boost.” It is this communal spirit and vision which is, “thankful and privileged to be able to move through those spaces without being clocked,” and it is with the utmost diligence that we remember that, “all kinds of trans people are really beautiful, not just the ones that pass as cis!” ✨ And the places that we think of as being infertile ground for queers can come to be a restorative sanctuary. “I grew up in rural PA as a cowboy! Doing that work has brought me a ton of inner peace, and it’s still an important part of my life. Currently, when I’m not at my day job, I can be found either writing, making music, or taking photos.“ ✨ Many of us have a natural compass that wants to shepherd us toward inner peace, and the route can feel convoluted and roundabout but as Anderson has discovered on his ride thus far, if you are receptive enough you may pick up a few hitchhikers along the way—Some of whom may be other lovely editions of you. #GutsNYC #queerartists #transman #transfag #selfcare #ftm #queercowboy #gaycowboy #queerstories #transmanofinstagram #queermodel

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On social media we present the best of ourselves but there’s so much scar tissue and dark matter that we keep to different degrees. Here at Guts we like to see some of that dirt under your finger nails, especially the fine ones whose life we imagine is—merrily, merrily, merrily—but a dream. ?

Joselo, a visual artist residing in Brooklyn, said something that certainly resonated with us, “I’m grown. I’m healthy. I’m about to be 30. I’ve never been better. I’ve come a long way though, I felt like a fuck up for so long. I’m an art school drop out #artschoolruinedmylife and also battled many demons and these streets have really raised me. I’m warm, I’m fuzzy, but RUN UP GET DONE UP.” ??

There is a specific type of trauma that we as queer people must compartmentalize and digest. It can make you stronger and give you character as it has in Joselo’s case OR conversely, as Abraham Lincoln once said, “Whatever doesn’t kill you fucks you up mentally.” ?

“If you only know me through the gram and haven’t met me in person, there are many things that are misunderstood about me. But if you know me and I fuck with you, then generally I think I’m pretty well understood. I just wanna be happy and see my community thriving.” ???

A New Yorker of more than 11 years, though originally from the Boston area, Joselo’s been involved in NYC nightlife for a while (@maricon_nyc/DJing/photography/hosting) and has been hustling creatively and couldn’t be happier to be part of the supportive and thriving POC scene happening right now. “I have my sisters who I can relate to and carry with. My chosen family is my life.” Most of us will arrive at a place of satisfaction and peace through time, experience, and searching to problem solve your way through all the ish. If you’re in the thick of it now, just look at this fine example of personal growth, and know that good news is on the way! . . . . .
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NYC has an enormous gravitational pull on the world, plucking creative & marginal people out of their outlying nurseries. And just as sure as an angel falls to earth at 9.8 m/s/s, so it goes that the extraordinary and misunderstood will be attracted to NYC’s fertile streets. A microcosm where one can be both lost in anonymity or found and polished like a Warhol star.✨ Massimo @mx551m0 recalls growing up in Upstate NY, “I often felt humiliated because of the stares I’d get. Kids whispered blunt comments about my androgynous appearance. I dreamt of living with my sister in Queens and going to a performing arts school. Now that I’m here it’s hard to go back even to visit. This city is comforting though it’s still easy to feel like a lil’ tiny fish in a huge sea.”✨✨ Of course, attendant with gaining access and tolerance means occasionally feeling dwarfed by the personalities and qualifications of your peers. It’s jarring to go from being underwhelmed to racing in a shoal of ambitious peers. “Whenever I start to compare my journey to others, I actively stop and remind myself that success means many things to different people. Everyone has their path and there’s enough room and opportunity for all.”✨✨ Living in such density, it is nearly inevitable to feel dismissed or misunderstood. “I feel people don’t really grasp who I am and see a pretty-faced queer kid with a unique aesthetic—A character and model rather than an artist—the part of me I identify with most. It’s frustrating when posts of my art get dramatically less likes than photos of myself. I use clothes, accessories, and makeup to express myself but internally my soul is even more of a spinning cloud of creative energy.”✨✨ “I’m in school for photography but I’m exploring videography, sculpture, sound, and more. Art is a tool for healing and examining my experiences as a queer individual breaking the gender binary.” Is it versatility that helps artists gain control over the way they are perceived? Luckily, attractive and fashionable are not the worst attributes to have projected upon you. Soak it in beautiful boy and keep investing in those more lasting interests and virtues that will not fail you. #GutsNYC

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Although personal evolution is very crucial to Znere, he has learned that “no matter how much I change, some things stay the same.” It is this nuanced outlook that makes our #mcm especially compelling. As he learns to encompass the full scope of the human experience—From being in love, to learning the preferred nature in which it’s received; From being a starving artist, to the redemption of working a fulfilling career as a creative— he understands that “everything takes time and as I look through the universe for guidance I can only hope I don’t burn too many bridges along the way.” Inspired by the everyday creative who shows you the “can’t stop, won’t stop“ mentality, Znere is a screenplay writer which is his passion despite often having it being mistaken for modeling which he knows is a result of posting his (drop dead gorgeous ?) modeling shots due to the visual nature of Instagram. Born in Tampa, Florida, he moved to L.A., then again to NYC two years ago. Perhaps it’s apropos that the film he was most influenced by is 2003’s “The Dreamers,” a film about characters obsessed with the beauty and fantasy of cinema but eventually sheds its idyllic visage to reveal the true form and nature of how “the dream,” for all of its style, lacked the substance. It is a fitting note for Znere whose outlook is to embrace the whole of his experience within and also beyond our ephemeral curiosity. As he reflects on the plurality of our mercurial existences, let us also indulge in our superficiality as we reflect on his fine ass and his flawless skin that we’d easily give one of our kidneys in exchange for. ? #GutsNYC . . ????? ??????? 1️⃣ @montystilson 2️⃣ @lukeaustinphoto @zandwagon 3️⃣ @bkcolby . . . . . #queernyc #nycqueer #gaynyc #gaymodel #gaymodels #queerartist #queerartistsofcolor #queerartists #gaywriter #gaywriters #queernarratives

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We’ve always had our eyes ? on our #mcm @loejjie. His striking features are only magnified by a fashionably fearless POV that is editorial, androgynous, and perhaps to some, a little inaccessible and mysterious. ? Well jokes on them. Turns out he possesses an acute awareness of how his desire to be expressive through his appearance can be alienating and misunderstood. ? One of the first things we asked was if Loejjie was his real name. We thought it was a play on the Spanish fashion house of almost-similar pronunciation— Loewe— to which he modestly informed us that it is his given name, an assemblage of the first letters of his parents’ best friends’ names, which he said was not fancy at all and was pronounced kinda like Mario’s ectomorph 8-bit sibling, Luigi. ? A Brooklyn-based Portuguese-Filipino model/actor from Seattle, he decided to open a second ig account @_anime_baddie_ to offset, as he told us, “social media which has become saturated with near perfect standards,” and to create a space “where I catalog my behind the scenes, daily encounters and thoughts that others may find weird, spammy or outright silly. Everyone has a cooler online persona, and that’s ok, but I want to reflect on my early 20s and have a more accurate representation of my life.” “Some people have pointed out that I live this glamorous and easy-breezy life, which is not always the case; so I guess that’s something I feel misunderstood about.” Never judge a DVD by its stylish Criterion cover, especially one with a second disk full of humanizing bonus features. ? What interests would such an exotic and otherworldly beauty use to feed his soul? He says, anime, science fiction, styling and photography. He keeps in shape through a dedicated routine that includes yoga, pilates, dance, and long boarding. ? Don’t get it twisted y’all, some of the ones that seem to be soaring high above, may be the very ones who actually have their feet on solid ground. #GutsNYC . . ????? ??????? 1️⃣ @Youeth4 2️⃣ @Haonguyen.jpg 3️⃣ @idan.barazani 4️⃣ @Harshhy 6️⃣ @Willemverb

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This #MCM is very close to our ❤️. Before I even met Cody last year, people were already telling me to get in touch with this gorgeous guy who’s moving from LA to study illustration at SVA. Well we have to return him to LA for the summer but getting to know him has been a heartening reminder that there are attractive gay men out there who are grounded, kind, and even nerdy ?. Cody, you’ve got that vibe that boys run to and it’s all about you. Thank you for bringing an element of warmth, sexiness, and cheer to Guts. We’ll be waiting with bated breathe till you come home to us. #babyboy #hapaboy #someonegreat

This #MCM is very close to our ❤️.

Before I even met Cody last year, people were already telling me to get in touch with this gorgeous guy who’s moving from LA to study illustration at SVA. Well we have to return him to LA for the summer but getting to know him has been a heartening reminder that there are attractive gay men out there who are grounded, kind, and even nerdy ?.

Cody, you’ve got that vibe that boys run to and it’s all about you. Thank you for bringing an element of warmth, sexiness, and cheer to Guts. We’ll be waiting with bated breathe till you come home to us. #babyboy #hapaboy #someonegreat